I love my lesbian teacher

Ok here it goes I'm in Love, so much it hurt's no-one know's I can't tell anyone.Im in love with a 53 year old teacher.I was her student, but now i have left and I have a broken heart. I wish I could be with her, but she is so professional she would never do anything to put her career at risk.She will always mean so much to me she tried to help me give up my drug addiction, but she gave up on me and i also think she stopped loving me.She told me such sacred,secret thing's.I sound mad maybe i am obsessed but that is a part of love isn't it? I'm pretty sure i am a lesbian but only because i want to spend the rest of my life with her.So i see no point in 'coming out' when i won't have a relationship. so two confession's well three I HAD A DRUG ADDICTION , but i am giving it up for her I AM IN LOVE WITH HER I AM A LESBIAN - well i think lol