i think i love my boss, i really want him, want

i think i love my boss, i really want him, want to have sex with him want to lick his body, kiss him, let him suck my cock and balls want to rub my hands over his butt, message them and squeeze them have my finger deep inside his crack while talking dirty to him and listening to him too want him to pee all over my body i even wish to drink his piss i really want him, only him and no one else what to do? should i ask him? what if he refused? i would be shocked and might kill myself help me please