I can't sleep, I think I feel over stimulated that is what happens if I got to bed too early.

I'm beginning to hate everything. Nature is boring and empty. Eating food is a chore...I wish I could just live off of vitamins and coffee. Music is played out. Nothing is really sacred in this world, it seems. There are only three things left in this world that I get enjoyment from: 1. Romance with my man 2. Skydiving 3. My job (it's an adrenaline job). Everything is else is boring and I can't be bothered. The magic is gone and I live for no good reason that I can think of. Maybe I should go have some kids or something. I have no hope. I'm just here. I don't know what I have to look forward to. I feel like I've done all the living I could possibly want to do. I don't understand people who want to live to be 120 years old. That's just madness. I have to think that such people are either idiots or really skilled escapists because reality is ugly and that's the truth. Maybe I should dope myself up so that I don't have to be conscious of this wretched experience called "living." Barf. I can't sleep.

I'm beginning to hate everything. Nature is boring and empty. Eating food is a chore...I wish I coul...

Tonight I got really pissed at my best friend for raggin on my kid. She always feels the need to correct my kids. To make them feel two inches tall. And if she doesn't get her way. Watch out. Every few years we really fight bad because she is very manipulative and tries to control everyone's lives. She got mad I got mad she was walking toward my kid and I threw my soda can at her. it hit her on the head square. she said she was gonna pass out, She started yelling and screaming then came over and punched me in the face hard. her husband got mad and started screaming about the neighbors. she went to the hospital to have her head checked out. i remained calm enough not to punch her lights out when she hit me back. sometimes i can't believe the stuff that she does. i think that she is stealing from people and she lies a lot. more then is normal. she always has to be right. she will do anything to cover her butt. i get so mad at her bad behavior. Now i am screwed. she will probably press charges if she's injured. She likes to fake injuries to get money too. What a glorious day this has turned out to be. My kids are freaked out. her kids are freaked out and we both have injuries. Points go to letting some stupid getting the best of you. Can I rewind please.

Tonight I got really pissed at my best friend for raggin on my kid. She always feels the need to cor...

Hey V and P – you are two of the most worthless pieces of shit I have ever encountered in my career. You are a couple of lying sacks of shit that throw people under the bus to cover your own incompetent asses and save yourselves from the fate you deserve. I saw that V left the company last year – good FUCKING riddance you miserable C**T. The both of you don’t ever listen to reason and the warnings that you were given that the project was going to fail. You think calling up scrum masters on their PERSONAL phone and SCREAMING at them for an hour is leadership? If you or any other of the worthless ‘leaders’ knew a goddamn thing about the cloud, you would have realized that this project would have taken much more than the time you promised it to ‘the business’.

Hey V and P – you are two of the most worthless pieces of shit I have ever encountered in my career....