I used to go out with a barrister in the high court in another country.

I am almost at the end of my teenage years and single. Up till now, I only had one relation, which is over now (not because of me, but my boyfriend who was interested in his 'best friend' and the girl is now his girlfriend as expected). He lived far away and it was not possible to meet every month. I loved him too much. During the middle of our relationship, I felt a little less wanted by him. He seemed to be more interested in his best friend. I was so overflown with hormones I couldn't help myself. I wanted him so badly. I wanted him to notice me, my body. But his skinny beautiful best friend always seemed to top it. He even called me fat in various ways but ended up saying he liked it soft and chubby. (I'm not fat just chubby 36-30-36) I could not help my urges so one day I opened an account in one of the ad*lt social networking sites. I clicked n*d*s and uploaded them there. I was showered with compliments and somehow I felt a bit happy that people desired me. They made me feel like I was beautiful. I had no intentions of any one night stands though.Nor was I interested in replying to all those msgs with d**k pictutes asking me for my number. I just read compliments and felt happy. I did not cheat on my guy by any other means. But was I actually cheating? I don't know but I feel guilty. Honestly I could never think of anyone other than him. He was in my head all the time. Then oneday a guy in this ad*lt site texted me. For some reason I felt like replying and for the first time actually had a chat with someone. At first he was s*xting but then he suddenly wrote "you're not what you seem like. You are a good girl. What are you doing here?" we started talking. He was depressed and he used to share his problems with me. He started falling in love with me even though he never saw my face. We didnot send n*d*s to each other, rather we had descent talk on life and personal matters. I felt a sense of pity for him. He pleaded for my love. But I warned him innumerous times that I cannot be with him that it is not possible. I did not have feelings for him just wanted to help him get out of his depression. But the more I tried to help, the more it got worse. He even made me say "I love you" to him though I did not want to. All the time I was thinking of my boyfriend and thinking by myself that I'm not cheating- I don't have feelings for this guy and my boy is all I want and I love him. And I really meant it. But this online guy, I felt so bad for him. Then one day I decided I had to leave. I had to go away or his life would be ruined. The online guy was rejecting every other girl for me,he just wanted me desperately and it wasn't possible. I felt I was doing wrong to both- my boyfriend and this online guy. So I left. I saw his mails, yearning for me to talk and I deleted the email id. I abandoned the account on the ad*lt networking site. I simply vanished from his life and concentrated on my boyfriend. It's been 2 years, I just hope he has moved on. I wish I could tell him my real name and we could be friends. He was a nice guy. But I never felt attracted to anyone other than my boyfriend. Was I really cheating? It's eating me inside. He is my ex now, but I still wonder, is it acceptable whatever I did? Offcourse not acceptable since I never had the guts to confess this to him and never will. I feel very guilty not being able to tell this to anyone. Helping a guy out of depression only to throw him back into another. I really am a s***** girl. But there was nothing I could have done for this.The online guy was way older than me we had 9 years of age difference. But it is not about the age, I belong in a conservative family and I knew we can't be together. Moreover I never had feelings for him, was helping him just like a friend but anonymously.

I am almost at the end of my teenage years and single. Up till now, I only had one relation, which i...

I have a neighbor who goes out with a friend of hers all the time - I mean 24/7 partying and looking for guys. They leave their little kids alone all the time. One girl is fat and wears leggings, trust me, she ain't gettin laid anytime soon YUCK! So when you godzillas finally figure out you ain't gonna land a man and all you have left are your kids and your old and FATTER. I guarantee your kids aren't going to be there for you. You b****** are terrible mothers

I have a neighbor who goes out with a friend of hers all the time - I mean 24/7 partying and lookin...

Heres just one reason to hate religion I was at work when this short ugly wimp of a boy came to me with his usual holier than thou attitude. He told me that he would never marry a divorced woman. Well every woman in my family was divorced and remarried. I felt insulted because no woman of any description in her right mind would want to marry someone as short and ugly as he was. He argued with me and his signature saying after someone disagreed with him was "you just keep thinking like that". I could have killed his little scrawny ass but I didn't want to lose my job and I just left the little a******. Yes its in bible that your not supposed to marry a divorced woman. The bible also talks about talking snakes and jackasses and other unbelievable nonsense that no one in their right mind would believe happened. Is there anything good about your religion other than the promise of some vague paradise after death? Either that or a similarly vague eternal H*** that this kind just loving all forgivine god has in store for non christians? I doubt if I'd like Heaven if it was populated by wimps like the a****** in my story. I'm glad I'm an atheist.

Heres just one reason to hate religion I was at work when this short ugly wimp of a boy came to me w...