all R does is laugh at stupid things that are not even funny just like grandma did.

my mother had to have 12 lots of pain injections over a number of months when she was working in govt and I am starting to think I might have to, I would opt for surgery if need be the key hole microscopic surgery is incrediable now.

my mother had to have 12 lots of pain injections over a number of months when she was working in gov...

i am just praying that these medications work and I don't vomit them up as in the past I did and gave up taking them and suffered out the pain. but so far its been alright. I just pray I get better I have been so agro for weeks with this pain and I overdid the exercise and it really shocked me yesterday. I can't wait for my doctor to come back so I can go to the physio.

i am just praying that these medications work and I don't vomit them up as in the past I did and gav...

I have a lot of little girl things here and some little boy things I want to have children and I really do want to move to a better climate that is not so hot. I dont' enjoy life here anymore. this year my parents and I are saving to go on our first ever cruise overseas and I want to go either around the baltic areas or scandinavian areas and france and debrovnic and egypt and just pray I can get a good deal. because right now, the two toilets need fixing or replacing and I want to put in a new sink down stairs and we need a new fence and I can't just wait around for a guy to ask me out to date me, I want love and affection and sex and I have a spare cruise ticket and wish I could go on a good honeymoon to places I have longed to see like finland and russia and ireland and uk and france and I want to do a few cruises. i keep thinking maybe I have to travel and find a man overseas as none here are good men to be husband or father material. so I have wanted to travel for a long time and its only money that has held me back and also that witch who stopped me having a income and career russo & joyce. I dont have a car, or house and i have wanted to work but I have been ill. I have gone through a number of weirdo illnesses for the last 25 years and even after the car accident not anyone to give me the affection and love I needed to comfort me, no husband its like people seen me as a loser for being injured in a car accident and other factors. I dont understand why men my own age have rejected me so much. its very painful and it makes you bitter and hard and people wonder why I am sometimes strict and disgusted by people, but I never loved one guy my sister or anyone introduced me to, they were so hopeless at being human and real, had no skills and either too old or too young. i can't help it that I could not and can not love ken. its just a fact in life that I was wronged by leigh morris and others who didnt respect me or want something good for me. so that is why my parents agree with me, if people didnt want to see me inlove and married young and enjoying life and being special and married and didn't want to celebrate my wedding day that should have been in 1994 to someone I met at university who was everything I was looking for, unlike ken who there was nothing in him I could say was what I would want in a man at all. I wouldn't even call him a real man, he was a loser, a child and a idiot and rather full of himself about women and he was hopeless. but if people couldn't bare to see me married when I wanted to be when I was 24 then I sure as hell wont be celebrating anyone elses wedding and love - like relatives - my parents said they wont either. so for bitches like my cousins younger and older who wronged me- what goes around comes around. I will never like you and I will never forgive you and my parents and I want nothing to do with you sue and karen and that goes for a lot of people who wronged me.

I have a lot of little girl things here and some little boy things I want to have children and I rea...