I am constantly worried about my parents health and my health, I am so afraid I have a hard time making it through and I am really sick of this shit about how I have to be like ugly dirty mongrel louise without a mother before I know real life and love. for fuck sake I talk to my younger cousins and she doesn't seem to hold that sort of shit at me. I am sick of Louise's shit as a older cousin she has been a rough person to work out. I am sick of people messing with me.