don't know what to do, go out with the old bitch witch or stay in and do nothing?

My life. I think i'm a nothing. An ugly disgusting loser. My brother and sister are much better than me at EVERYTHING. I am 15. My brother is 17. And my sister is 19. I have secret thoughts of murdering my sister. I want to f****** cut her head off ALL THE TIME!!! My brother gets all the girls. While i cant get one. I have longish brown curly hair and almost a full beard at my age. I walk around school getting nothing but ews and gross and all of that stuff. I've gotten insulted my entire life by my family and friends even my own parents. I've tried taking my life many times but something always comes in the way and stops me. I'm on serious depression medication but i feel that its not enough.

My life. I think i'm a nothing. An ugly disgusting loser. My brother and sister are much better than...

I hooked up with my best friends x boyfriend I need advice I have known my best friend since I was in kindergarten and we have now known each other for 13 years she’s a big part of my life she’s like a sister to me and apart of my family we have had our ups and downs but nothing ever like this well it all started one weekend when I was with her and some friends her and her boyfriend broke up a while ago and I have known him for 4 years now and we are friends I have never had feelings towards him but on the weekend I had way too much to drink and I was extremely drunk and I’m ashamed of it I’m 17 also and me and him were talking and then he kissed me and I kissed him back I then told my friend and it then had happened again and I also told him to tell her because I felt so bad I started then to drink more because I felt bad and then everyone went to sleep and I was in her parents bed with him and we hooked up and he fingered me and I told him I didn’t want to have s** I told her the next day and she was upset and hurt it’s now been a week and we haven’t spoken I’m so scared I’ve lost her as a friend and if I could take it back in a heart beat I would and I am also on depression medication and when alcohol mixes with it, it doesn’t turn out good. Please give me advice

I hooked up with my best friends x boyfriend I need advice I have known my best friend since I was i...

about mr col. I like him but don't want to be seen with him There is this guy. He's funny, smart, has a great attitude to life but there's one thing. He's not good looking In any way. I really like him but I don't want him to make me look bad, I'm mean ,not being vain, but im not bad looking and I really like him. I'm just worried what other people will think. Even worse I'm worried what my parents will think if I bring him home. I don't want to disappoint them but I do really like him.

about mr col. I like him but don't want to be seen with him There is this guy. He's funny, smart, ha...