forced to carry heavy cafeteria trays for auntie bedpan sickup ; little girl hands no excuse.

my feelings were hurt when R said to us "you will die before you have that new kitchen finished". I don't say that to others. I know I need a job. I just want a part time job at the present time. I don't think you are award of just how much pain I am in every moment of every day. Lately I hit the paracetamol packets due to just shocking leg and back pain and feet ache and everything ache. I need the sort of massage that would last a week with heavy blades for gua sha. I went to the Christmas party for the womens victims of violence group and the whole time I was in pain and its so hot when I got there I just wear the dangy cloths because I am fat and ugly and I don't pretend to be a happy lady when I am in pain and have no comforting hands of help to reduce the pain other then a few massages a year and I really need more work done. I just really need some guys to help me move heavy furniture and I am stressed out because a while ago someone was trying to break in to our house again and my father caught them and then today again chairs I had recovered had been moved. we have had so many break ins in here from the day we moved in here. these guys were in our yard one night and we had the doors open and we went up stairs and when we came back all the stuffing of a big cushion looked like it had been knife hacked open and stuffing everywhere over the floor. we have had heaps of things like that. no one cares about me, my relatives never give me the support I need. I have to go to a organisation for that. no one helps me in this pain and fear.

my feelings were hurt when R said to us "you will die before you have that new kitchen finished". I ...

you would swear I sat around all day munching junk food fat chips and burger buns and cakes and whatever fat stuff, and I eat salads and veggies a lot lot lot lot more then fats and carbs and sugars. it hurts me that people don't see what I eat. the worst treat I had today was a HJ ice-cream cone for like 60cents and I have that about 1 ever few years. I hate my medications but I know I need them. I hate the fat they make me gain. I hate the pain I am in all the time in the lower back and hips and stomach. I just wish they could invent a medication that doesn't cause the weight gain but was good for depression.

you would swear I sat around all day munching junk food fat chips and burger buns and cakes and what...

usually I just have lower back pain and abdo pain and sciatica but this year with flu viruses we got has been shocking. the main reason a lot of people in Australia have flu even with vaccination this year has been due to a mutation of the viral vaccine process here and also more people coming in for commonwealth games. we have been more sick then not. I had to just about beg a physio to do percussion therapy on me and the thoracic back pain I have been in from coughing fits and one night I didn't stop all night til I went on sunday out to a pharmacist I like and he gave me some good stuff that really worked on the cough. I had percussion therapy back in 2014 when I was very sick and I had a pneumonia and I got a bird flu or swine flu when in 2011 when my grandfather died. I don't mess around when it comes to my lungs because of whopping cough I had and I have had a non- paralysing form of polio I swear itand I had doctors to stool tests to check and we gone through testing for stds and cancers and I don't know what else to do, as nothing showed and that should be a good thing but I feel like "why am I in this much pain then?" I got coughing fits and vomiting dizzy fits in 2007-2008 and had heaps of MRI's on my brain and body for migraines and they did just all my body to find out what the dam hell was wrong. my leg injury from the car accident still gives me pain but last xrays showed no fluid on the joints were as I do have a bursitis and spur on shoulder and a few ganglion cysts on hip joints and one ovary was swollen but they just want to go with keyhole surgery I just want a xray or mri or ctscan what ever to see what is causing all the pelvic and lower pain or the back discs are worse . 2 bugling discs is shit pain and then from the car accident cervical discs in the neck damaged but I am sick of this pain and soreness and fat.

usually I just have lower back pain and abdo pain and sciatica but this year with flu viruses we got...