Going Away

my cousin can't deal with the fact her father assaulted me. I know she has back stabbed me over it and spread lies because that is how her family work and win and lose!

my cousin can't deal with the fact her father assaulted me. I know she has back stabbed me over it a...

I know it's wrong. I slept with another man after talking to him for 2weeks. and the fact of the matter is i am married. He said all the right things and made me feel wanted so I cheated. She is not happy about it that I cheated on her. In fact, She lives to torture me. She spends the entire day sitting downstairs talking s*** out loud to herself in front of neighbours screaming s*** words and how much we don't do it or I never please her and about me being limp. Tranquilizers got me fired for sleeping on the job as did my big mouth. I told her to stop it. We had a fight again. This time she kicked me out. I have gay curious erges with other men. Is it my fault.

I know it's wrong. I slept with another man after talking to him for 2weeks. and the fact of the ma...

it took my aunt to win a few million in lotto before she treated me halfway normal. I look back and realise how jealous they must have been of me, to get career and education or marry into money and stylish men, my uncle even molested me. I mean wow, it took a few million dollars for her to not be so rude to me for a change. Before that it was always "these text message have to stop on my daughter" they didn't care I had a stalker or was raped or anything I hurt or suffered as a kid. It was always "I hope things work out for you but they probably won't" and the would giggle sarcastically and that hurt my feelings. in other words she really ment was "I hope to god it never works out for you and you get a good man or career or degree cuz I need to be better then you" ! and she still is better then me. all my cousins always seen themselves as better. I felt less then them always on both sides of the fence with mum and dads family. But I went out of my way to wish some young students graduating in law all the best and told them "well I will wish you the best unlike what happened to me, no one ever wished me well in anything!" and I did nothing to deserve all that. My grandmother never got see me excel at anything or in my environment of expertise in any stage of my upbringing. she just never knew. Not one of my family came to wish me the best at my finals night everyone did but me. a person doesn't forget that too easily. Stupidly I always wished the best to others in the family now I don't care to say it ! stuff them!

it took my aunt to win a few million in lotto before she treated me halfway normal. I look back and ...