I am down these days,very blue.... and not caring about my own

I am down these days,very blue.... and not caring about my own staff,leaving all the matter to my parents. forgive me! I'll do something tomorrow

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i dont even think im gay i just like him!!!???? when i was 15 i met him he was 17 people would always comment on how much time we spent together we must of been the best of friends they would say it started when i went to his house for the second time his parents wer out and trying to find thing to do we ended up in his parents bedroom he said they might have some hiden alcohol after finding a bag of condoms he started to ask me questions about s and who i fancy i went all shy but i dint usually mind anouncing who i liked i avoided the quetions by asking him if he had had s he said yes i asked who with he said he would not say so i asked who he likes he said me i thought he was joking at first befor i knew it he was on his knees undoing my trousers he gave me a b******* then got up and acted like nothing had happened after that day i would go to his house everyday wherther his parents wer in or not and the same happened now im 18 and at my first year of uni iv not seen him in a while i dont know wat to do he has asked to come and visit me for the weekend and i said yes when he gets here a meets my girlfriend will he say anything we wer never going out or anything im to scared to ask if i scare him off and never see him again but if he dosent say anything im gona have to share a room with him anyway wat will he expect im not a cheat but could i say no so many questions i just dont dare answer i think of him every day mayb being with my girlfriend im just lying to myself but iv never been attracted to another man of ever considered myself to b gay i am attracted to women almost every day pfft wats wrong with me

i dont even think im gay i just like him!!!???? when i was 15 i met him he was 17 people would alway...

AO warning*** I ordered a rubber c* with b** for * I ordered a rubber c* with b** attached (called a Doc Johnson) from the internet for $40.00. I was gonna give it to my wife. When it arrived.... it was HUGE!!!! It also looked and felt very real. It was nine inches long, thick with veins and big b. Anyway, I never gave it to her because its bigger than my own d*! So.... I started to try sucking it and licking the b to see what thats like. It was a turn on which surprised me. When she was not home, I put a towell on the floor, stuck it to the wall (it has strong suction cup), oiled it up and oiled my ass and it happened. I backed into it and immagined that I was in jail and this was my cellmate who wanted s or would beat me up. I sloooooowly pushed the thick head into my a** and could not get it in. Harder and harder I pushed into it when.... OH MY GOD!!! The pain was unreal but the pleasure was tripple that!!!!!! The thick head s;ipped into my ass and once it was all the way in, the pain was gone. Then... Heaven!!!! The feeling of that THICK rubber c* sliding into me. Oh man! I wanted to see how much I could take and backed all the way up until I felt the rubber b** slapping my ass!!! Thats nine inches deep!!! I never thought and do not think that I am gay but f*!!!! I must admit... I bent over and f*** that rubber d* for twenty minutes and when I came.....it was a gusher!!! Now I know why guys like being f***! I felt bad and threw the d* away at a store trash can. BUT.....I just bout a video online called "Bend Over Boyfriend" that teaches women ow to f*** thier husbands in the ass with a strap on. I am gonna give it to my wife and see if she will get into this. Has anyone here tried this great thing?

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Occasionally I get these impulses. They generally happen when I'm having a heated conversation or I'm surprised by something or I get really angry at someone. I'm generally a thoughtful guy, I try to talk things out with people as getting physical is just showing that you can't express yourself with words and you don't want to try, which I look down on. Annoyingly, all throughout my life, I have been getting these completely instinctual, often savage impulses to do something without thinking. I will be having a conversation about something of a sensitive nature, usually about something that either I or the person I'm talking to possesses. Sometimes these conversations get to a point where the person I'm talking to becomes as stubborn as a brick wall. It really gets me angry when someone I literally say "Let's talk this out" sit down and suddenly thinks "This person knows I am flawed, I don't want to help myself by talking to this person" and becomes aggressive toward me. I'm not saying I'm perfect, but I make an active choice to try and remedy my shortcomings. When this happens, usually I have these sudden urges to utterly destroy the person I was talking to. To leap at them and tear their neck apart with my teeth and bash their head against the floor; completely rip apart their body. They are fleeting most of the time, but whilst I'm under these urges I tend to do things without realising; like I've become a different person. There is this one person that I am in class with (I am 18 years old by the way) and they have severe ADHD. The problem is, thy seem to be completely under the delusion that people view them as this dramatic character with a romantic and sad backstory and that they say things out in class and they are always right because they are so wise and love-scarred. I know for a fact that he doesn't take his medication ever and they are incredibly pretentious. I can forgive him for saying completely random things because he has ADHD, but having ADHD doesn't make you into an arrogant d* that thinks you are always right. He is the only person in the entire school that makes me angry every time he opens his f mouth when he hasn't even been asked anything. He just generally comments on anything he hears like he is somehow now an authority on identifying the species of animal a skull came from, even though he doesn't even do Biology. Or for instance, I was talking about Trisomy with my Bio teacher after class as we were walking down from the science block as it was then lunch time. We were talking about Trisomy 21 (which is what causes he most common form of Down-Syndrome) and how it affects the person that has it. This person however, just tries to slide into the conversation and says "Oh if it's not that bad, they would just have slightly lower intelligence" This is, in fact, completely and utterly wrong. Having a genetic disorder doesn't affect your intelligence. It can certainly affect the rate at which you can become intelligent or severely limit you, but it doesn't just mean "you have a lower intelligence". At that point, I almost did it; I almost just gave in. I had an impulse so strong that it was all I could do to restrain myself from leaping at him. I helped a lot that my science teacher was there as he is someone that I have shared my mental health problems with before and he could see my internal conflict. The teacher shooed him away quickly, but right at that moment when he forced his way into the conversation; I wanted to kill him. I wanted to take out my anger on him so visciously that I would kill him, I wanted to smash his head against the concrete, to do horrible things to him, to just let it out and get him out of my life. I hate it. I hate these impulses and how it limits me. I hate how every time I walk past the butcher I inhale deeply and feel a yearning for the meat. I hate how, when I see a rabbit or a hare, a feel an urge to race after it and eat it raw.

Occasionally I get these impulses. They generally happen when I'm having a heated conversation or I'...