some days I accept that I won't have children and be the mother I wanted to be. I used to even buy baby things and little girls and boys toys or clothing and things with laws of attraction but it never worked for me. its painful. but i accept that it may never happen now. sometimes i just tell myself it could or i could adopt or have my eggs taken out and have a donor father and surrogate but that is something i never really wanted. if you ever have the time to see the movie with Bridget Fonda it will make you cry about a little girl that died and they used her eyes dna that was up for donor after her death to make another baby clone like her. sometimes still i watched all these soppy movies, but not as much as i used to. i just wish god wasn't such a cunt!