Today 9 months for us with herself

She has again left for Hanover, will walk and photograph the places again forgotten by the God in this city. And I have again remained one. I have found blog that guy. I begin, today my first sober day and terrible war inside of me. The whole wave of emotions, I cannot tell it words, I feel it. Jealousy, depression, thirst to live, thirst to die, thirst to return my girlfriend, thirst to return my wife! I try to correct now position, I listen to a trance of radio and I calm myself. But emotions are replaced periodically. But whether I shall be in time? This question me muchaet constantly and most of all. She speaks that I have made it for the sake of myself. And now I feel one. Victor Tsoy's words " All world are recollected goes on me by war ". I accept this fight!