Watching a movie that i thought was transformers but it was

I feel like such a reject. My family is always reminding me of how terrible of a person I am and they blame everything on me and it has psychologically ruined me. I started to abuse drugs and hurting myself and the people that actually did care about me like my boyfriend. I feel like I can't trust anyone. I stay up late at night every single night sick to my stomach about past sins and current situations. I spent my Christmas crying my eyes out because here's to another ,sloppy knight.

I feel like such a reject. My family is always reminding me of how terrible of a person I am and the...

You look at me from the outside and it seems like I am doing alright, put together, professionally stable and in control. But the truth is - I am overwhelmed. It's not the same as depression, and it's not all sadness. More of an overall emptiness with no clue how to move forward and still be the grown up with grown up responsibilities. My children are grown, but are still in need of me being a stable force - and since I am their only parent, it falls to me. I am alone in the world, surrounded by family in name only - without support or backups. I feel so much in limbo and wish I could find a trustworthy adult, adultier than me who can help me figure out where to go, or how to move forward. And, your wife called to tell me you passed away. And I'm not sure how to feel, or if I feel anything. I'm not sure it WAS anything.

You look at me from the outside and it seems like I am doing alright, put together, professionally s...

I'm leaving. I'm running away from home. Forever. Why? Internet addiction. It ruins everything. I'm getting more stupid. I don't understand a lot. School. It's loud. There are so many pointless stuff. I want to get out. Forever. I'm no doing suicide because I'm scared. I'm just leaving. i always wanted to

I'm leaving. I'm running away from home. Forever. Why? Internet addiction. It ruins everything. I'm ...