everything just feels too heavy to carry. I get overwhelmed and want to throw in accounting and health and everything sometimes I can't cope I am sick of being my own teacher, no social life. I just wish there was a normal world I used to understand years ago when courses where not as dear and were easier with more time and better teachers, I dont understand the world anymore. I am so angry that I don't have access to health and education or social life or finding a partner/husband, I am sick of the gay community ruling this world with their "pityme!" stories when victims of crime go through as much I have been highly traumatised by halloween for years since the letterbox bombings in the street and the burning of signs and drunks in the yard trying to break in and someone actually breaking in the house. sometimes I do want to move from here to a nicer up market place. cuz this place used to be nice but I out grew here a long long time ago. I don't like the evil element that is here now that has been here for the last 15 years maybe I was naive and it was here before that from the time we moved in there were break and enters here all the time I was afraid with good reason too. and that dam over the back where the grape vines are. its creepy! a death zone!
everything just feels too heavy to carry. I get overwhelmed and want to throw in accounting and health and everything sometimes I can't cope I am sick of being my own teacher, no social life. I just wish there was a normal world I used to understand years ago when courses where not as dear and were easier with more time and better teachers, I dont understand the world anymore. I am so angry that I don't have access to health and education or social life or finding a partner/husband, I am sick of the gay community ruling this world with their "pityme!" stories when victims of crime go through as much I have been highly traumatised by halloween for years since the letterbox bombings in the street and the burning of signs and drunks in the yard trying to break in and someone actually breaking in the house. sometimes I do want to move from here to a nicer up market place. cuz this place used to be nice but I out grew here a long long time ago. I don't like the evil element that is here now that has been here for the last 15 years maybe I was naive and it was here before that from the time we moved in there were break and enters here all the time I was afraid with good reason too. and that dam over the back where the grape vines are. its creepy! a death zone!