i am sick of groups like aa alannon, asca all expect money to go to support group and where does the money go? it might not seem a lot by you pay out $5 for attending the meeting for room hire. raffle tickets and I can't afford their xmas dinner and parties and raffles, I can't even afford to have lunch with them and I don't like eating with people and like at the churches they over do this hugging non-sense. I do not want to be hugged by any or every man and woman. I don't mind an occasional hug but they want to kiss you on the cheek and its just a bother when I had a rash it hurt everytime someone wanted to hug me and i was like "look its not contagious but I don't want to be touched right now cuz it hurts" . i don't want old men hugging me either. i find it hard to go to aa etc for all the bible bashing shit they through at you. but strangely enough I enjoy doing readings and I occasionally talk about my own problems. I wish i could work in story narration or something. everything i want to do people tell me i can't do and i am sick of it. I should start doing that back to everyone i meet. see how they like it. i was told in pharmacy i don't have personality to do law and what a shame to hide away a lovely personality and friendliness like you with law and then i was told in other jobs - oh you won't be able to do that. its always the same. fuck i am sick of that. how about i go around putting everyone down around me telling them all what they can't do and see how they like it for 30 or 40 years. i pick at others faults now because for the last 45 years people picked on me so i do it to everyone now. even strangers.