i am not a warm loving person anymore. I am not even that nice. if only people knew what i was thinking even back years ago. its just that is not socially polite to say it or go up and attack someone so I get my attacks in when I have been wronged. just got into someone who was bugging me a few months back. I am awful like that. I have no ability to fall for charm from men or make friends. I am not likable at all. I always have kept distance with most people deliberately. what you see is just surface cover, its not me inside. I am cold and somewhat mean and like seeing people come down and get hurt and I enjoy seeing people suffer some. I rich and beautiful young things come down. I enjoy seeing bad people caught. I enjoy dobbing all the people I can. especially thugs. I never used to be this way but now its just me. I like being the informant and dobbing everyone I know in and I have. there is not one person that I even love that I have not dobbed in for something they did wrong to me. I didn't want it to be that its just seeing no one helped me and I didn't get anything I wanted I had to of course get some revenge and I do daily now.