i don't know how to make drugs to sell. I guess that is why I am missing out in life.

I wonder why I try for love or work. I dressed well and talked normal and nothing was ever good enough. NOT ACCEPTING THE BULLDERDUST GAMES OF GUPPY CHARCRUST.

I wonder why I try for love or work. I dressed well and talked normal and nothing was ever good enou...

now you're supposed to say "Oh dear lord what have I done!"

now you're supposed to say "Oh dear lord what have I done!"

I don't know why ken keeps doing this to me because we never loved each other or anything like that in the least, but he keeps copying either careers or cars or things about any guy I say I like right. I know he is not Max or Matt or Zyan or Harry or other guys I just like. But I can see he is doing the exact same thing my sister rose does to me that I don't understand. they every guy I said I liked be it one of my teachers or a nutritionist or actor or singer she tries to make out they are her philipino husband and I have told my doctor this. where it doesn't make sense that she was making out that davo was her philipino husband and she enjoyed seeing the girls over the road having sex with him on trampolines anything to stop me from having any man, then she stopped me seeing doctors I liked and teachers and music performers so I don't go to any of those things, if I went to watch the local cricket team she would make out any I liked was her philipino husband, even the police officer I said I liked she did the same thing. she did it with every guy even when she was married to her first husband and I couldn't understand it. saying I was not allowed to go out with this robert from my school days just because his sister used to tease her so I said OK, and left. then I liked a few university teachers and she didn't like that either. and then she was sometimes trying to push her first husband on to me or his friends and I didn't understand why she was doing this. none of it made any sense. then bec was pushing rick and katy togehter and then katy was pushing trevor and ally together so I just pushed them all with each other as well and kept my distance and left and moved on as they say. I am sick of ken spastic loser good for nothing commenting about any man I like because its none of his business who I get involved with. its nothing to do with him at all. I want nothing to do with a loser rapist who didn't even get me to medical help after I had a stroke a normal moral person wouldn't have even did what he did. the useless spastic I am above ken and rose and their dirty tricks with that ugly Johnny Depp - anna-maria and nadine like spastic depp I fucking well do not. and I know he is playing games with this orlando character and I am getting sick of their whole shit. I yelled at jenny one time before over all this shit with her cunt Philipino fuckos scum scammos. I yelled at rose and jenny both with their childishness when they are two spastic dogs anyway.

I don't know why ken keeps doing this to me because we never loved each other or anything like that ...