now the party is over and its night I feel so empty and can't rest and have to work tomorrow

teetlow was a bitch of an old man bully abuser. I blame him!

teetlow was a bitch of an old man bully abuser. I blame him!

What is wrong with people? // Why won't they let me help? Nowadays when you tell someone you want to kill yourself and have no motivation to continue whilst choking on tears it is acceptable for them to chuckle and say "same." God, whenever I tell someone that I may be developing depression or some other sort of issue and want advice, they just say "Nah, you'll be fine. I mean, I didn't see someone and I am. I mean, I cut and cry every night and rarely get out of bed in the mornings but I'm fine. Hey, check out my cuts!" God damnit. I don't want to see your scars of weakness. I don't want to develop those scars either. I want to actually overcome my problems and learn for them rather than succumb to them and willingly encourage others to suffer with me. ((Be happy! Please! I don't want you to smile or jump around with joy. I just want you to read these few sentences and feel wonderful warmth in your heart. And no matter what, stay hopeful and have faith for the future. Please. <3 )) // Nothing hurts me more than seeing someone in pain, anyone in pain. Myself included. When I cry, I cry even more because I am crying. If someone were to go ahead and stab me and then begin to bawl, I'd go ahead and take a knee next to them and try to help them with their troubles even if I were to be bleeding out. However no one will let me help them. No one will open up to me and trust me enough to let me help them. I'd consider myself a very trustworthy person, once something goes into my ears you shouldn't expect it to come out of my mouth. Hell, if you told me you killed someone and the circumstances were as needed, I'd not tell a soul. But no matter how much I tell them this they don't trust me, no matter our relationship with each other they don't trust me. I haven't done anything to lose trust, either. Yet my significant other still doesn't trust me enough to let me help them after a year of being together. It is making me start to lose trust and I am sick of it. ((Sorry this entire thing is all over the place. My mind is the same way right now so I couldn't help but make little to no sense.))

What is wrong with people? // Why won't they let me help? Nowadays when you tell someone you want ...

What is wrong with people? // Why won't they let me help? Nowadays when you tell someone you want to kill yourself and have no motivation to continue whilst choking on tears it is acceptable for them to chuckle and say "same." God, whenever I tell someone that I may be developing depression or some other sort of issue and want advice, they just say "Nah, you'll be fine. I mean, I didn't see someone and I am. I mean, I cut and cry every night and rarely get out of bed in the mornings but I'm fine. Hey, check out my cuts!" God damnit. I don't want to see your scars of weakness. I don't want to develop those scars either. I want to actually overcome my problems and learn for them rather than succumb to them and willingly encourage others to suffer with me. ((Be happy! Please! I don't want you to smile or jump around with joy. I just want you to read these few sentences and feel wonderful warmth in your heart. And no matter what, stay hopeful and have faith for the future. Please. <3 )) // Nothing hurts me more than seeing someone in pain, anyone in pain. Myself included. When I cry, I cry even more because I am crying. If someone were to go ahead and stab me and then begin to bawl, I'd go ahead and take a knee next to them and try to help them with their troubles even if I were to be bleeding out. However no one will let me help them. No one will open up to me and trust me enough to let me help them. I'd consider myself a very trustworthy person, once something goes into my ears you shouldn't expect it to come out of my mouth. Hell, if you told me you killed someone and the circumstances were as needed, I'd not tell a soul. But no matter how much I tell them this they don't trust me, no matter our relationship with each other they don't trust me. I haven't done anything to lose trust, either. Yet my significant other still doesn't trust me enough to let me help them after a year of being together. It is making me start to lose trust and I am sick of it. ((Sorry this entire thing is all over the place. My mind is the same way right now so I couldn't help but make little to no sense.))

What is wrong with people? // Why won't they let me help? Nowadays when you tell someone you want ...