my therapist told me its normal to distance yourself someways from any churches at all after being spiritually abused, I went through it with the catholic church and also with penticostal churches and ministries that not really true religions, I have done some minor catholic studies but I keep my distance because I am sick of having to prove my faith - my words to god are between me and god and I was told a heap of crap that I had to not have any other idiols in my life not money, not relationships, not like pop stars or actors or have people I admire. I was told to not value principalitites by the bayside family church and also the love of love ministries so I was not allowed to like royals which all this was strange to me. then they did this opening of the mouth ceremony which is a form of egypitan and masonary yet the penticostals and ministries are against spirits and ghosts, and yet believe in demon possession, they don't believe in the saints like the catholics teach, they call the rosary beads demonic, etc so many strange contradictions, your not allowed to like asian therpies or art which is weird, or aboriginal or other cultures. I did have stockholm syndrome with the catholics and yet also a lot of anger and bitterness in how I felt so let down by the catholics at the school i was at where my dad worked, I never liked much about the penticostal churches, and I don't think they are christain at all. they don't talke about mary or the holy spirit all they talk about is how jesus died on the cross for you and he died and he died and he died and its morbid and based on guilt to control https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1aHg5UdwU6E https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vRnYse2VShg and all these churches will say "well who are you to comment about our doctrines?" as if your nothing https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZ6zcmPMTpQ then I was being controlled who to mix with and I had to remove all things but jesus and I had to repent everything and live like a dirty nigar peasant in a 3rd world nation and to me this was abuse and I told police and other groups how they were abusing me. being bullied by these maoris and islanders and my grandfather warned me out those people that there were some nice ones but the bad ones were really bad. and most of them are con artist liars and bullies and obsessed with black power and they bully white disability women as if we don't have a right to marry a white man and have a career. I don't blame the good ones but the evils ones really harmed me physically and mentally. and I know my grandfather would never do anything to a black woman as he was mostly impediant due to war illnesses and injuries.
my therapist told me its normal to distance yourself someways from any churches at all after being spiritually abused, I went through it with the catholic church and also with penticostal churches and ministries that not really true religions, I have done some minor catholic studies but I keep my distance because I am sick of having to prove my faith - my words to god are between me and god and I was told a heap of crap that I had to not have any other idiols in my life not money, not relationships, not like pop stars or actors or have people I admire. I was told to not value principalitites by the bayside family church and also the love of love ministries so I was not allowed to like royals which all this was strange to me. then they did this opening of the mouth ceremony which is a form of egypitan and masonary yet the penticostals and ministries are against spirits and ghosts, and yet believe in demon possession, they don't believe in the saints like the catholics teach, they call the rosary beads demonic, etc so many strange contradictions, your not allowed to like asian therpies or art which is weird, or aboriginal or other cultures. I did have stockholm syndrome with the catholics and yet also a lot of anger and bitterness in how I felt so let down by the catholics at the school i was at where my dad worked, I never liked much about the penticostal churches, and I don't think they are christain at all. they don't talke about mary or the holy spirit all they talk about is how jesus died on the cross for you and he died and he died and he died and its morbid and based on guilt to control https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1aHg5UdwU6E https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vRnYse2VShg and all these churches will say "well who are you to comment about our doctrines?" as if your nothing https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZ6zcmPMTpQ then I was being controlled who to mix with and I had to remove all things but jesus and I had to repent everything and live like a dirty nigar peasant in a 3rd world nation and to me this was abuse and I told police and other groups how they were abusing me. being bullied by these maoris and islanders and my grandfather warned me out those people that there were some nice ones but the bad ones were really bad. and most of them are con artist liars and bullies and obsessed with black power and they bully white disability women as if we don't have a right to marry a white man and have a career. I don't blame the good ones but the evils ones really harmed me physically and mentally. and I know my grandfather would never do anything to a black woman as he was mostly impediant due to war illnesses and injuries.