now you're supposed to say "Oh dear lord what have I done!"

emma abused me then expects me to happy for her, firstly happy is a dumb word I never use. only they can be happy for themselves. I don't do "happy" ken taught me that his idea of happy was rather ugly and dirty and , it aint my scene, I used other profound words, no I won't be happy for anyone. they have to do that for themselves.

emma abused me then expects me to happy for her, firstly happy is a dumb word I never use. only they...

i won't forgive emma for abusing me the way she did, getting that teen to stalk me. i know what she was implying that i am some immature women on disability but I am more mature then her and all her appenders , did she consider my health stresses and worries - no she added to them. I had cancer did she care. I am not jealous of my parents having radium and chemo for their cancer how stupid. I am grateful to god but I am angry at god for what he has done to me. when I have been over loyal to the lord. over righteous and good, god has wronged me for being good. so i am telling god he has to learn to dance to my tune and my doctor agrees. bugger how other people feel. they got themselves pregnant and they can suffer it out without my pity or joy for them. they have to do that for themselves. but why emma would do that to me i don't understand she was a real wolf in sheeps clothing and evil how evil of a married woman to push a teenage boy onto me and i am in my 40s and she is implying i am immature just because i am on disability and had serious illnesses that are none of her business, just so she could re-marry and get up thd duff again. what an evil thing to do! you evil bad woman. you will get what is coming to you whore. why should i give more then she gives back to me. no. i will not be happy for her. not now not ever. she wronged me. it had to end. I hope she has the modesty and decency to stay away from me next week and not come, as I dont want to see her and I will ignore her if I do. she should be punished. not loved but punished for what she did. and she told me she used to steal cakes from kids.

i won't forgive emma for abusing me the way she did, getting that teen to stalk me. i know what she ...

emma calls her customers "smelly bums" that was when I thought "you're a bitch, you are up yourself, you're ass smells like everyone else bitch", she started acting like she was so above me when she started working for a female natruapath and she was putting down my study which I knew she would like sally did. like only their study is relevent to the world, only their vaginas are worthy and they are old hags but gee do they think they have something to give. like doret. she was a fat hustling momma ghetto bitch with a dozen kids to as many fathers looking down her nose at me and she wronged me. that liar. i was single and studying and she pulled a number on me I will never forgive. I just don't forget or forgive people anymore. god has wronged me. I was too nice and kind. god slammed me for being good, every night I would say my prayers faithfully day in and day out and thank god, ask god to fix problems of other peoples and my own. god hurt me everytime. every single time god let me down. I am not a satanic but I just don't believe in religion of any kind anymore. there is no god. I nearly died and I can tell you there is no god. I asked god to save me and he did sort of but my life is pain every day. every hour of every day I have to hide the emotional and physical pain for the last 30 years. I kept illnesses a secret not even tellin other doctors everything, I don't want their pity parties anyway. that is all they give is pity or sarcasim and insults and its wearing thin, the next doctor to mock me and abuse might cope a filipeno presidents hitman at them if they don't watch it. the next bitch that tries to down me ever again will definately get a filipineno presidents hit man at them. I told him about a few people already. I have had cancer, I have no husband I have sexually abused as a child and suffered at the hands of a drunken old beast who hurt me over and over. DON'T YOU DAM WELL FUCK WITH ME FUCKERS!

emma calls her customers "smelly bums" that was when I thought "you're a bitch, you are up yourself,...