I Hate Myself

to be honest tafe and university it not everything. because doing other learning and documentaries or short courses help build up bit by bit. we used to do 3 or 4, 20hr a week subjects and it didn't help me much. I admit I was lazy and could have studied more but I was depressed a lot because I had never been allowed to deal with the child sexual abuse stuff. what annoys me with virgina and shirley is that they had degrees in social welfare etc but the shit they were saying was upsetting me. firstly. to say kids who are abused who get help earlier in life are no better off is a absolute lie. the quicker you get police and psychological and educational support the better. secondly, to say that because I was abused means I am more likly to be a pedo myself is again another lie, I don't think you know how this made me cry and cry and feel like I was doomed and then others believed your bullshit. then 3rdly to say kids innocently sexually exploring other kids is the same as a pedo was the biggest lie and hurt, because in that case you would have every child of 10 or 14 labeled pedos any kind who had a little girlfriend or boyfriend or in teens because you made out that it doesn't matter if kids are molested at 4 or 14 and I disagree, I didn't have a choice. I was 4 when it started or younger with older kids but about 4 with the pedo, and yet you make out a teen of 16 being molested is equal when I was molested by an old man for 10 years from the age of 4. by 15-16 I stood up to him and had enough and got angry and then I was made to feel like a bad naughty child for getting angry. WELL EXCUSE ME!

to be honest tafe and university it not everything. because doing other learning and documentaries o...

I gave up university 4 times. 1st when I was bashed and when I was ill and due to money not affording books and the stress to my health. I got into a nursing degree and didn't take it up I knocked it back. I didn't feel I had enough intelligence to do science based courses, I didn't think I could cope with the stresses of the job. I gave up law because everytime I sat in policing or legal classes or court cases while studying it just upset me witth my own child abuse and rape traumas. I had no friends the whole time. study was lonely. life has been lonely. I gave a lot of courses in pathology in 2006 due to illnesss, I gave up a mediation and arbitation diploma when I got cancer. I gave up a few other courses. I tried to do dental 3 times and just couldn't financially afford it and medical bills and their bullshit at the colleges.

I gave up university 4 times. 1st when I was bashed and when I was ill and due to money not affordin...

of course your suck a selfish rich dirty old man john laws you wouldn't know what it was like to give up your life to look after someone elses child. you wouldn't know what it was like suffering out this abuse. you bully spastic old dirty old man. so don't you DAM WELL START ON ME YOU SON OF A DIRTY UGLY SLUT!

of course your suck a selfish rich dirty old man john laws you wouldn't know what it was like to gi...