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I'm only with my husband for his money I'm only with my husband for his money. I love him, but not enough to really be with him for the rest of my life. I know I couldn't survive without him financially. I so wish I could. Married 5 years. I am 23 and he is 50. We get along, but I so desparately want out. I long for someone to understand me and make me feel like I'm a beautiful person inside and out. He just drains me emotionally and is negative all the time.

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I'm only with my husband for his money I'm only with my husband for his money. I love him, but not enough to really be with him for the rest of my life. I know I couldn't survive without him financially. I so wish I could. Married 5 years. I am 23 and he is 50. We get along, but I so desparately want out. I long for someone to understand me and make me feel like I'm a beautiful person inside and out. He just drains me emotionally and is negative all the time.
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