i cheat my gf, for 4 months...and she doesn't know...yet

Cheating on Hubby with Ex BF I am a married woman for past 21 years. I am happily married. My Ex BF lives in another country. Yet I am not able to forget my Ex BF. I have met him twice since I got married (21 years) to have sex. We chat on regular basis. We both live very far from each other (5000 miles). I keep on lying and cheating on my husband. My Ex BF is also happily married. We both keep on making new email addresses and chat on whatsapp and phone calls. We do short video chats and share photos all sorts. I think my husband knows, but whenever he confronts me. I change the email address and assure him that there is nothing between me and my Ex. Then after sometime, both, my Ex and I are on it again. Any advice?

Cheating on Hubby with Ex BF I am a married woman for past 21 years. I am happily married. My Ex BF...

Soon wouldn't be quick enough My husband should drop dead. He left me an insurance policy that will keep myself and our children OK. I also think he's having an affair, or wants to. I just called him to see what is up and he got mad at me. I have wanted him to have what he wants whether it be the car he wants, or other guy toys he covets, but I have told him I am not sharing him with another woman. I am so angry at him I wish he would die of a painful heart attack in that damn car he always wanted. This is sad for me to want this, I know. He hurt me so bad.

Soon wouldn't be quick enough My husband should drop dead. He left me an insurance policy that will...

Why did I have to go off and get married again? I was a happily divorced man with my life together and doing well. Ever since I got married again it has been constant whining, complaining and problems. Nobody can have that many problems and I can't fix them for somebody else anyway. They have to fix them. I'm so tired and exhausted I don't expect to live more than another 5 or 6 years at this rate. Women want equal rights everywhere, and then want to be catered to like a queen in addition to that. You can't have it both ways

Why did I have to go off and get married again? I was a happily divorced man with my life together ...