He really turns me on. He's strong, funny, and really good looking. I want him to lay with me, but am afraid of what he'd think if I asked. You may not think it's a big deal, but it is. You see, he's my cousin and he's only 14. Not only that but I'm a guy and 4 years older. I'm not openly "gay" but I do fantasize about being with other guys, especially him. What should I do?