when i face to my boyfriend,i can't relax completely

or,i am not honest? we knew each other on internet,so,i know it's not a good thing i love him,and really i do but,when we have a date,i can't show my real myself to him becuase i want i could be considered a sweet,lovely,smart girl,i hope he can love me more. actually,i'm a  outer-directed  and creazy girl,so i feel not confortble,and i don' kwow how should i do? sorry,i do love you.