im in a shitty relationship and i cant seem to get out of it ...it was great in the beginning and the sex was awsome but I was 12 then and now I am 60 thinking its time to let this dougebag go! right now its just crazy i dt want to have sex with him and when i do i fantasize im with other people men and women ,it just seem like thats the only way i can do it with him ..i dt get of so imasterbate with myself alot and i watch lesbian porn while i do it ..its not that my bf is bad in bed cus hes not hes awsome and his dick is huge its just not into it anymore..i think i want to be with a girl and not him ...i just feel like having a pussy in my mouth and i have even picked her out ..idk if i will ever leave or any thing. .but i wish i could figure it out or cheat ...i have cheated on alot of my ex bf