i cant stand this pain. everything i cant stand this pain. everything inside of me just wants to break into pieces. i look at people.smiling, happy. with friends and living their life, like theres no tomorrow. i wish i could be them. be happy, with myself. i sit here, thinking that these people are better than me. knowing they are. that im nothing compared to them. i pray that life will get better, and ill finally be able to live in my own skin. its been 5 years. i want to die. im nothing. i hate myself.