I have been having a bad time with the partner i live with. He has been seeking attention else where and sending dirty text messages saying he didnt love me and he wanted her. But telling me it was all a joke. I went out with the girls, and got drunk and went home with a male mate. he kissed me and i pulled away telling him i had a boyfriend... but then i decided that he hurt me enough, i would do something for me. So i slept with him. I told him i kissed another guy, but not that I had s** with him. I feel awfull. Im a cheater, and the type of person i hate. But i still love him and want to fight to keep him. Thats what the mistake helped me realise.