Broke up yesterday I ended the best relationship of my life yesterday… we were nearing 7 months. We're both high schoolers. His personality just kind of changed about a month ago. It was harder to get his attention and he kept choosing his friends over me. He wasn't always this way. He used to be like romantically obsessed with me. Not in a creepy way, just I wouldn't leave his mind and he always wanted to hold me. We often got in trouble in class for PDA. Recently, that all just stopped and I had to make all the moves, sometimes to be rejected. He said he still loved me and there was just something going on with me but finally I got sick of it and dumped him. This happened yesterday. Last night, I had a dream of him and me. I was trying to get him back but he wasn't interested. He kept giving me hugs and kisses and telling me to move on. This morning I woke up physically missing the feeling of his body against mine. I'd give anything just to kiss him again. I feel like I've made a terrible mistake. I want him so bad and now that I can't have him, i love him more than ever. I feel like if I take him back, nothing will change. I'm so lost and hurting and I want him to hold me but it can't happen.

Broke up yesterday I ended the best relationship of my life yesterday… we were nearing 7 months. We're both high schoolers. His personality just kind of changed about a month ago. It was harder to get his attention and he kept choosing his friends over me. He wasn't always this way. He used to be like romantically obsessed with me. Not in a creepy way, just I wouldn't leave his mind and he always wanted to hold me. We often got in trouble in class for PDA. Recently, that all just stopped and I had to make all the moves, sometimes to be rejected. He said he still loved me and there was just something going on with me but finally I got sick of it and dumped him. This happened yesterday. Last night, I had a dream of him and me. I was trying to get him back but he wasn't interested. He kept giving me hugs and kisses and telling me to move on. This morning I woke up physically missing the feeling of his body against mine. I'd give anything just to kiss him again. I feel like I've made a terrible mistake. I want him so bad and now that I can't have him, i love him more than ever. I feel like if I take him back, nothing will change. I'm so lost and hurting and I want him to hold me but it can't happen.
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