losing interest in life. feeling like ending my life. only reason for delay is that i as of now am indebted and need to refund an amount of Rs.2,00,000/- + interst (although i have not been asked for it) to one of my very intimate friend who has always been helpful to me in every situation not only monetary in nature but in every situation. My soul wouldn't rest in peace if i die without paying off the loan amount.