I am so jealous of my boyfriend's ex wife and anyone else he has been with because I'm afraid I'm not as good as they are, and yes, I know this isn't the right way to be, but that doesn't help me change. He married his ex after only 3 months, and doesn't want to marry me that fast. I feel like I'm not as good as she was. He also said it was because she was pregnant, but he doesn't want me getting pregnant, so I feel like she got to be a wife and his child's mom while I get to be nothing but the girlfriend forever. He is also twice my age, so I feel like he has had so much more life experience that I will never be part of.