I've been divorced for 5 years and talk to my step-daughter (she's 15) once or twice a week and she gets to visit me for two 1-week vacations each year. I've always thought of her as my own and I love her a lot. But as she's gotten older and with time's passing, I don't feel as close to her as I once did. The thing is, her best friend (she's 15 also) has continued to stop by and hang out a couple times a week since the divorce and my ex moving out of state. Over the years, I've helped with her homework, we've played games, I've listened to her complaints and even had her cry on my shoulder a few times. I bought those overpriced school cookies & candy and always got her a B-day and X-mas gift. I've done all the fun Dad things with her that I missed out getting to do with my own StepD and it's gotten to the point where I think of her more as my own than I do my StepD. I haven't seen her in 2 weeks and missing her hurts more than it ever has missing my own StepD. I've even considered driving by her house just to make sure she's okay. Is it "wrong" to have such strong parental feelings for her at this point? She does live in a fractured dysfunctional family, lives with her aunts most of the time, Mom & Dad only when they're not fighting or drunk. If I could, I'd adopt her.

I've been divorced for 5 years and talk to my step-daughter (she's 15) once or twice a week and she gets to visit me for two 1-week vacations each year. I've always thought of her as my own and I love her a lot. But as she's gotten older and with time's passing, I don't feel as close to her as I once did. The thing is, her best friend (she's 15 also) has continued to stop by and hang out a couple times a week since the divorce and my ex moving out of state. Over the years, I've helped with her homework, we've played games, I've listened to her complaints and even had her cry on my shoulder a few times. I bought those overpriced school cookies & candy and always got her a B-day and X-mas gift. I've done all the fun Dad things with her that I missed out getting to do with my own StepD and it's gotten to the point where I think of her more as my own than I do my StepD. I haven't seen her in 2 weeks and missing her hurts more than it ever has missing my own StepD. I've even considered driving by her house just to make sure she's okay. Is it "wrong" to have such strong parental feelings for her at this point? She does live in a fractured dysfunctional family, lives with her aunts most of the time, Mom & Dad only when they're not fighting or drunk. If I could, I'd adopt her.
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