im 14 and i had to come out to my parents because rumors were spreading around about me and my best friend. i expected it to go better than it did, and now my mom is more of a closet mother than ever. she keeps being ashamed of me and disappointed. we were watching a movie, if i stay, and she looks at me so sadly and said "I just want you to experience that" i couldnt even believe it. i dont know why she thinks i cant experience it with another girl because i have and it was perfect. she makes me even more suicidal than i used to be, and makes me want to relapse into self harm. she always tells me that im going to hell and nothing hurts worse than that. and i cant fucking handle this anymore. just let me love who i want and i can be happy, but not if your trying to make me be with a guy. i just want to be allowed to be happy with the girl of my dreams. and yes its possible.

I was not interested in the games those choirs and shirley anita kelly and margie were playing. I don't have time or interest in stupid senile peoples dumb disgusting deviant games. you are gonna get caught with your pants down and caught out for stalking and abuse. I know your are a bad person shirley and maybe that doctor is also. no doubt he may try to use his so called loose charm on women after the fact, after his abuse and games but he has a lot to prove to me that he is worthy of my time before I go gaga over him. I am not completely convinced that all is so nice there in those choirs and medical practice and games of abuse are going on. only time will show evidence if any. causation and link are rather explicit and too co-incidential to be just a radom mistake of shirley and anita, kelly and margie and something did not add up at all. all these people were up to no good and had altera motives and it looks like they were helping someone to abuse me and steal my clothing and things and these so called pretty men you have to watch them, some attractive men are out and out murdering killers and have no scruples at all. how do I know if davo or macb or someone code named phil/ricky was not a very dangerious handsome killer? I have to consider this before I trust as something did not add up. shirley made a mistake being in that choir when I joined something told me there was some game being plotted when john said "the year before 2 girls were competing in the choir and we are glad they have gone" and I knew then it had to be a similar plot or pattern of events. this person repeats their pattern of abuse in those choirs.

I was not interested in the games those choirs and shirley anita kelly and margie were playing. I do...

i want to move from here. and just start a better life. I am sick of bouncing dirty talk neighbors s...