part of me longs for a greater love then this old guy who means well but is not right for me.

i really need to stop farting so much. I farted in the shops when no one was around and made it sound like I was moving something.

i really need to stop farting so much. I farted in the shops when no one was around and made it soun...

wang said "don't worry about your illness, it will get better" being the expert on everything that he is- ?? - I said sure well I think I will find another doctor then, thankfully not all asians have your attitude. don't worry about having a clean house. don't worry about all the stuff like clothes and junk you buy piling up all around you so much you can't move in the house. I leave the house to avoid looking at the junk. all I need is a roof somewhere far away from the cold night air- oh wouldn't it be lovely! to have a nice clean house and a husband and someone to care about me, and give me a lot of me and love time! break even time, holiday time, over time pay packet, social time, I can't wait to meet so many people I am so sad and lonely, I want to meet so many people and shake their hand and I went to aged homes and held crying old mens hands and went away sad at night alone crying for them, and the disability people. fuck me life is a bucket of shit. when I am sick I can only really think of myself. my needs for once- my surviving cancer and desperate to have a baby- can men sense my desperateness to be free of a nutter like ken and find a husband and go on some cruises and holidays and meet fun new people. I want to meet lots of people and be liked. would that offend anyone? I want sex and love. I want a man to protect me and love me. I want a clean house and all my clothes and shoes and hats and bags and things in order, I want a big kitchen -I am sick of a pokey little peebox of a kitchen. I want a big garden and space to have fun outside without neighbors gwarking.

wang said "don't worry about your illness, it will get better" being the expert on everything that h...

I put in my new azaleas and camellia and wisteria shrubs, I really want them to grow. I got some snapdragons, orange marigolds, amaranthus and cordiles, some shallots, radish, basil, cherry tomatoes, dill and coriander put them all in and I want to get some lavender, sage, nasturisium, germanians. we go to all the flower shows and take so many photos - I think mum has found her niche flower photography.

I put in my new azaleas and camellia and wisteria shrubs, I really want them to grow. I got some sna...