I am just considering walking out on my family and just taking a long bus ride and not coming back. I have considered dumping the cats in a bag and drowning them or dumping them at a shelter for enuthainizing because I can't cope their their demands and stress they put on me, they pester for food all the time driving me mad how can a cat be that hungry? they wreck things. I love them deeply but sometimes I want to dump everything this ugly old haunted evil house and neighborhood full of mental people who are violent and crazy evil. dumping all courses cuz I can't concentrate for long anymore and I am hating the loneliness. I should have been getting dates and being invited out while I was unemployed some fucker should have got off their asshole do to something. other whores were getting sprong breeding whoring around like dogs fat ugly slobby losers and yet no one was showing interest in me, where they told not to help me, not to invite me, were they told to ignore me and wreck my courses and why, and who would be that mental to do that blindly and just go around abusing me for fun just because david bowie told them to? who is that low in brainspan ? I mean I am a angry hate filled person i have deep hate inside of me, the hatred has outplaced everything else.