well I didn't party for new year even as it is my birthday because of a selfish stalker I have no friends to share my love and time with because of this selfish coward stalker who is like some jack the ripper who is so coward can't even show his face to people and man up! anyway, I exercised instead as I like to do my workouts and just did mild tummy crunches and back arches and posture moves and went to bed at 10.30pm I don't drink alcohol and even quit sugar but had some cordial and some nice dessert but this morning woke in pain, so this happens every few months and which is why I was careful with the dumbells weights workouts in the last week but maybe I over did it more then I think. but I had to call the home doctor and most of this is from 2 car accident injuries and I was born with a slight curve of th spine which seems to run in my dads family. last new year I felt and injured old injuries and that has mad it hard because my back surgeon told me not to over do the exercising too much. but I find I enjoy exercise like it makes me feel like a real person in the heat working out to point of sweating it out makes me feel great to music. but the pain now is terrible. I am waiting to hear back from my surgeon and other doctor and get some stronger pain killers as I want to avoid the local hospital. it hurts to stand, walk, sit down get up or go to sit and laying down even hurts, I should be used to this pain. pain is all I have known while others have money and love and friends that care I am treated like a idiot when I have more going for me then most people do.

well I didn't party for new year even as it is my birthday because of a selfish stalker I have no friends to share my love and time with because of this selfish coward stalker who is like some jack the ripper who is so coward can't even show his face to people and man up! anyway, I exercised instead as I like to do my workouts and just did mild tummy crunches and back arches and posture moves and went to bed at 10.30pm I don't drink alcohol and even quit sugar but had some cordial and some nice dessert but this morning woke in pain, so this happens every few months and which is why I was careful with the dumbells weights workouts in the last week but maybe I over did it more then I think. but I had to call the home doctor and most of this is from 2 car accident injuries and I was born with a slight curve of th spine which seems to run in my dads family. last new year I felt and injured old injuries and that has mad it hard because my back surgeon told me not to over do the exercising too much. but I find I enjoy exercise like it makes me feel like a real person in the heat working out to point of sweating it out makes me feel great to music. but the pain now is terrible. I am waiting to hear back from my surgeon and other doctor and get some stronger pain killers as I want to avoid the local hospital. it hurts to stand, walk, sit down get up or go to sit and laying down even hurts, I should be used to this pain. pain is all I have known while others have money and love and friends that care I am treated like a idiot when I have more going for me then most people do.
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