currently the austrlain govt attitude appears to be they just people or women like me to sit locked away in a room without friends or care and left to masturbate all our lives with any form of romantic love and meaningul emotional committement and its just not good enough to be treated like this and for a country or state to say that its ok for churches and colleges and doctors and everywhere I go to be bullied as some sexual slave to someone I don't want to be with. this was the exact same thing that these freaks did to me as a little child where I was a sexual captive to this dirty old pedophile for over 10 years from the age of 4 or 5 and its just not on! my parents are not tolerating the bullying and abuse from rsl and military and doctors, I tell my parents everything, even when we argue I tell them everything that people are doing to me or what they are saying. somedays I will rehash and repeat stories and things joyce and katy said to me over and over and over at my mother and father and other people trying to resolve it and I still can't in my head until I have the life I wanted back years ago I think I will continue rehashing and talking about it til its delt with and I am allowed some fight back and someone to listen to me and support my needs and my feelings in all this. because this is hate crime. that is what it is. its ritualised satanic occult on-going repetitive hate places I go so you learn not to trust. having a stalker watching every page i am on what online courses I do, where I shop or whatever is just an invasion of privacy and dirty ! its not helping me. its not making me feel love for people and infact its doing the exact oppposite where I am starting to hate and mistrust everyone and I could look at a man and not even feel love or a crush on him because I hear those things joyce and katy and rick and ken and the filipenos and my sister and so on, and other people said to me all over a new guys face now.