i have pain again. hope it eases up. fuk it. where is some relief from this boring existence?

just because i have a black chocolate part havana cat doesn't mean I love black men. I love my cat. not black men.

just because i have a black chocolate part havana cat doesn't mean I love black men. I love my cat. ...

other people are allowed holidays and bankcards and snotty jobs and like they really do live up to all their resume bullshit when most of them are losers overflated egos and not much skill or talent or looks. every year they go off to their parties and weddings and new sex partners and babies and houses and cars and act like they are better then everyone else when they are not.

other people are allowed holidays and bankcards and snotty jobs and like they really do live up to a...

now I have all this wedding stuff I still want to get married, I wanted to get married when I was young, I actually wanted a baby when I was 16 but I knew I had to wait and go learn and work first but I never met the right men at the right time. fuck you dirty bitchy world and dirty bitch god and all the winners. yeh If I had known this was going to happen I would have told that lotto office where to stick their lotto up their assholes. it never served me much. it did nothing to help me really that life wouldn't have but made people hate me. so I can hate rich and clever people back now. I dropped out of university 3 times after each bashing over a unsuccessful relationship attempts and felt so defeated and a failure that men my own age were rejecting me and all these loser old farts I hated were getting in my way - now I just scream at the cunts and bastards to "GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY OR I WILL BASH AND KILL YOU"

now I have all this wedding stuff I still want to get married, I wanted to get married when I was yo...