I suffer from pms and I sometimes cry and get depressed and a lot of people and men just don't want to understand what I am going through. I try so hard to put on a pretence of fake jolliness but I often sit crying alone in my room just wish someone would hug me. I never live up to what people want and they just walk over me too much. I feel so down and depressed and only a doctor or a woman going through this can understand. I wish there were support groups locally. I know people think its stupid but it is a real physical and psychological thing for me, I feel almost psychotic and paranoia and like everyone hates me and I have no friends. all my friends disappoint me deliberately so I guess I should learn to do that back more to people right. stop being the one that makes things good and ok for those who don't give a shit about me, like the choirs and churches and poeple like kelly and sally who just use and walk over me because I am so nice... oh they are so needing more then me, how dare I put my feelings and needs first! well sorry but I have to bitches!.

I suffer from pms and I sometimes cry and get depressed and a lot of people and men just don't want to understand what I am going through. I try so hard to put on a pretence of fake jolliness but I often sit crying alone in my room just wish someone would hug me. I never live up to what people want and they just walk over me too much. I feel so down and depressed and only a doctor or a woman going through this can understand. I wish there were support groups locally. I know people think its stupid but it is a real physical and psychological thing for me, I feel almost psychotic and paranoia and like everyone hates me and I have no friends. all my friends disappoint me deliberately so I guess I should learn to do that back more to people right. stop being the one that makes things good and ok for those who don't give a shit about me, like the choirs and churches and poeple like kelly and sally who just use and walk over me because I am so nice... oh they are so needing more then me, how dare I put my feelings and needs first! well sorry but I have to bitches!.
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