For the people with real problems in life, im so sry

I always complain about my life, even tho I dont have much to complain about. why am I complaining about a Life that seems so easy compared to others? I dont have any drug/money/serious health problems, and yet, sometimes, I despise my life, and have suicidal thoughts. I usually use music to ease my pain, but it only leads to another kind of pain every time. I dont believe in god, and I dont usually believe in people too. Just want to know if I deserve forgivness, or even deserve 2 minutes of your time.