Losing Fettish? I'm a 26 year old guy and this is weird but I get really turned on when I lose badly at sports or games but especially videogames. I was playing a strategy game on my pc tonight and I got beaten so badly, l like owned in a humiliating way. A weird feeling kind of slid over me and I got that knotty/butterflies feeling as it started to happen and i'm pretty sure i went bright red. I got so turned on and before i knew it i was sitting there with a raging hard-on. I it was driving me crazy so I had to get my dick out and I beat myself off right there infront of the PC as I got decimated at the game. I guess i'm asking 'What does this mean/show about me?' and was wondering if anyone else gets the same?

Losing Fettish? I'm a 26 year old guy and this is weird but I get really turned on when I lose badly at sports or games but especially videogames. I was playing a strategy game on my pc tonight and I got beaten so badly, l like owned in a humiliating way. A weird feeling kind of slid over me and I got that knotty/butterflies feeling as it started to happen and i'm pretty sure i went bright red. I got so turned on and before i knew it i was sitting there with a raging hard-on. I it was driving me crazy so I had to get my dick out and I beat myself off right there infront of the PC as I got decimated at the game. I guess i'm asking 'What does this mean/show about me?' and was wondering if anyone else gets the same?
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