. I love how comfortable you are with yourself and all of you friends. I like your friends. I like the way you are with my children. I like your fitness habits. I like your truck, I like that you are a mechanic but getting a tooth pulled caused a startling revelation last week, the dentist wanted to do an implant which he was going to charge right but things got edgy we just did it because it felt good and we were both experimenting our sexuality. I know I am not gay, but because of what I did, it makes me feel like I am. I can't seem to forgive myself and move on, I am stuck in the past, hating what I did and who I am. now I want something new.

. I love how comfortable you are with yourself and all of you friends. I like your friends. I like the way you are with my children. I like your fitness habits. I like your truck, I like that you are a mechanic but getting a tooth pulled caused a startling revelation last week, the dentist wanted to do an implant which he was going to charge right but things got edgy we just did it because it felt good and we were both experimenting our sexuality. I know I am not gay, but because of what I did, it makes me feel like I am. I can't seem to forgive myself and move on, I am stuck in the past, hating what I did and who I am. now I want something new.
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