I thought I had fell in love with him last year,

I am in my late 40s and considered a bad romance sexy love affair but not sure who to go bad with. I am not a "50 shadeser" myself never read the book or seen the movies they just don't interest me at all. but looking for some hotter action!

I am in my late 40s and considered a bad romance sexy love affair but not sure who to go bad with. ...

I was 15 and got my 7 year old brother to duck my cock. I came in his mouth and he quickly swallowed my cum. He liked it from the first time. 35 years have passed and he hss sucked and swallowed me at least twice a day. I can't remember once he has not done so. I also take anally daily. He cums hand free from anal.

I was 15 and got my 7 year old brother to duck my cock. I came in his mouth and he quickly swallowe...

I put this under waste because I've wasted my life. Here it goes. I'm bad like really bad. But looking at me you would never know. People are catching on as my life falls apart. I've been living like a quadruple life I guess. I don't even know who I am anymore. I can't think of anything I like. I hate everything and everyone. I have no friends left, the women of my life cheated lied and stole the entire time I've known them. Most of my buddies too. Just users you know. I always offer too much and people gladly accept my generosity. I always try and help but it eventually becomes them being entirely dependent on me. Then they go and I've lost so much in them. I never see the fruits of my labours. Now I'm totally alone. And financially ruined. Relying on booze and drugs to feel better about the shitty person I am. I pray to god thanking him only, not asking for more. He still rewards me a lot. Gives me great opportunity and strength to conquer challenges. But I can't conquer myself. I want to end my life. Nobody would notice except the few leeches who still cling to my generosity. Everybody I've helped is doing great. I never took time to take care of myself, or set myself up better. My friends, wife, in laws, girlfriends, and associates have all benefitted greatly from my efforts but I'm fucked mentally physically and financially. I even still protect people after they betray me. Keep their secrets, bend to their requests. I'm going to blow my brains out. I hate this world, it's ruined anyway. Goodby you fucked up people. There's a good chance that there is someone in your life going through this who helped you a lot. I bet you won't even reach out to repay what's owed. Sick fucking society world wide.

I put this under waste because I've wasted my life. Here it goes. I'm bad like really bad. But loo...