I'm a lonely housewife, my husband is always away in his

I'm a lonely housewife, my husband is always away in his stupid business trips, which leaves me subject to more emptiness and sadness I used to go to bars, trying to hook up with few other men, for a drink and some chat, but it soon started to become worse when I started dating some of them, and inviting them to my house ... and my bed I'm unfaithful to my husband, i know that, but what to do? p.s. I'm %100 sure that my husband never cheated me, and will never do, i know him very well, and that's what makes me feel even more guiltier Oh God, please forgive me