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i am cancelling my nye cruise to new caledonia since the earth quake I had felt no I can't handle a natural disaster and cyclone season. then I thought about all the islanders and nigs out here in australia who treat us so badly and why should i spend money on rude people and i might get germs in their beaches and hot water and sunburn and since I got sick I might try to get out of the contract cuz I seen some videos on youtube and nye on a cruise ship doesn't even look like fun, cuz i am not a drinker, i don't party. i don't trust people at all. it looks the loneliest place in a crowd to spend with people acting stupid and everyone in their own bubble and you know no one, its not like i will find a romance anywhere i go so, i need the money for my operation in hospital now, so i am going to get a refund and end the deal. why would you go to a place so close to guam and marianas trench and challenger deep where they set off the bomb in bikini atol by america that is probably all over there all radio active and us Australians put up with these islander nigs being rude to us. no thanks. time to call it off, I wasn't keen on it anyway, its just that it was dirt cheap deposit but yeh. don't know if I want to go now don't want nig germs. last cruise i got dirt cheap for 4 people at $800 and i only did it out of a dare. i can't afford this cruise and i no longer want to go if they have earthquakes. it doesn't feel safe. i don't feel safe to party i am just not a party person.

i am cancelling my nye cruise to new caledonia since the earth quake I had felt no I can't handle a ...

I used to strangle my both of my cats despite telling myself multiple times that I'd stop. I'd also bite their legs and nape, a few times hard enough to draw blood. I also would throw them at my bed and occasionally trap them under my plastic see-through waste bin, sit on top of it, and watch them freak out until I felt bad enough and let them out. Worse part is, I told myself I would never do it again after my first cat, Nico, died (unrelated to any of this, he was an outdoor cat and got lost and froze to death out in a storm) and then when another cat walked into my life things were going fine for a few years and then I fell back into those terrible habits again. She was very young when we found her, and eventually after doing it enough times she'd press herself close to me to get me to stop. Eventually I quit for good and I think she was very forgiving towards me. I'm almost certain that my mom knew and probably my brother too. Also, I've verbally told this to one other person, just because I think it's something at least one person in my life knows about me, no matter how heinous. Also that whole thing about karma kind of rings true. For all the horrible things I did, she died painfully young at the age of 4 from a kidney infection and I held her in my arms as she left me. Probably the most grief-stricken moment of my life. Definite guarantee I'll never do any of this again. Props if you actually read all of this, need to eventually tell my boyfriend too, I'm not very good at keeping secrets anyways...

I used to strangle my both of my cats despite telling myself multiple times that I'd stop. I'd also ...

i grew up with an insane fear and hate for radio, tv and famous people i seen then all as the child chatter going to kill and harm me, even santa claus (like he had claws to me) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8rdgKCTHmwI

i grew up with an insane fear and hate for radio, tv and famous people i seen then all as the child ...