miranda at her therapist place had it right she basically said I had nothing to offer a proper man. even today I was stalked on fb by a deadbeat creep shitbag weird freak that is below my intellect, I did my bit of helping to civilize the spastic retarted men like russell who was a user. I never wanted that loser as a friend he was davids and rose friend and I never wanted to know the shitbag. we had nothhing in common. he used me. I dragged him up and he dragged me down to hell. I didn't like being with him my sister pushed him on to me and he bullied me so I went out with him till I told him to stuff off because he was offeneding me after everything I did to help him boast up his confidence. a lot of men have done this to me. and for some spastic bearded creep today I told my mother what loser creep this guy was no intellect. not a reflections of any of my values or likes and interests at all. what would make a loser like that think I would want to know him?