I spent some of yesterday out and then came home and did some study and today trying to keep my day stress free because of chest pain and stuff.but I try to do some study. I am not content with this life anymore . I am sick of the bullshit and lack of moral values of others around me everywhere. I obsess over the food I eat and what and how much I eat more then I fuss over anything else. but its safe here being obsessed with food and exercise and study. I don't have to look at people or care if they care about 1 1 single dream or hope I have ever had and I don't have to care about how others are and I can learn to ignore other peoples crys of pain and hurt as they have to me.