you know how people have a past with friends and bonds with friends. I don't. its like all the rest of the world has their in-jokes and groups, a past love, a meaning, I don't. nothing is mine alone, nothing ever was. its all a load of shit. I just have no feeling towards most people. its a wonder I wake up most mornings I am just living day to day health wise. if die my cats will have to be euthanised with me and burnt with me.