i want to cry. i feel like a massive headache, neck ache dizzy and moody.

i am sick of being my own teacher at everything what ever happened to teachers anyway? lazy mongrel bastards. they are jealous and don't want to pass on new learning incase others improve their lives so how do they expect knowledge to be past down for the world to improve then? they are stupid. lazy. selfish. spoilt and lack moral autheticness.

i am sick of being my own teacher at everything what ever happened to teachers anyway? lazy mongrel ...

I am very tired and very depressed lately and I want to get of the house more because since the whore next door has been bullying me with her chooks in our yard - I hate this spastic whore of a woman she loves herself and needs a good bashing up! I feel no pity at all for her. she deserves a bullet in the head to be honest the abuse she did to me over that actor. they can all go to hell as far as I am concern. they came here with the deliberate intent to cause trouble in this neighborhood like donna did and I know it. I just want to get out do new things meet new people and find a good weight loss thing and I wish we could move from these gossupy mongrel satanic neighbors, that aint no gentlemen, and that aint no real blonde, she is a bloody gossupy annoying actress I want our family to be off the hussy maniac freak of a cow. they have changed the tone of this neighborhood. it used to be a nice place til donna came here and got worse with courtney I just don't like them.

I am very tired and very depressed lately and I want to get of the house more because since the whor...

I got this cheapskates 1950s handbag 2nd hand or could be 5th hand for all I know. I like to sometimes change the look with some paint or color and clean them over with vinegar or a cleaner. I admit I don't like a lot of modern handbags they are either too big and chunky or too dear. I like just a touch of vintage rather then going all raving out on it. but I have been learning to curb my addictions with my doctors and therapists and I admit I went shopping for things I didn't really need but because deep down I felt something was lacking so bad inside of me everytime I was rejected at job interviews I filled the void with speading for another job interview etc and playing "the part" which sounds crazy and also I was like a magnet going back to the same people in expensive city shops mostly buying discount items for someone to chat to because all my friends would bit by bit dump out on me at college or work and I shut down. it seems to be a re-occuring pattern. and I cant relate to the way tafe teaches courses anymore and the cost which is insane. I can remember signing up to a secondary community college and paying like $150.00 or so max with a govt rebate on top of that for like 5, 12month units that went for the full year in 1992, and back then you could do a associate diploma (AD) for over 2 years for like $20 per unit. they don't charge that now. I don't think its fair that I would like to do a course in something like floristry or other things but the prices are over the top and I would prefer to go to a private florist that just does sideline training school closer to my suburb anyway or in the city and you can choose your units and when its all added up you still get your certificate, there was one near a hospital and I think it should be everywhere now, and cake decorating and heaps of things train within the store or business. not a lot of families can afford $14,000 for a dental assist certificate. that is just outrageous and you wonder why young people are drinking? I don't drink alchol but you know it makes me angry because so many people are not getting a sense of community and socializing and work and I just think its evil. I can't see tafe at southbank changing because already they are doing degrees and I can't afford them. I can't understand marking systems and I like courses that are set out quick and less ambigiousness the better, easy to pass and easy to read or webinars and lectures online or classroom. I struggle with white paper and boring delivery of a course content.

I got this cheapskates 1950s handbag 2nd hand or could be 5th hand for all I know. I like to sometim...