I sometimes think that my mom should have just had friends and not a third child (me). My brothers are great, I'm a failure in every way. I'm now 34, and my mom is still with my step dad who ever since I can remember has made my mom cry. I've worried about my mom dying or being sad all of my life. I'm uptight, worried and very alone in the world. I don't know how to emotionally connect with anyone. My husband and I divorced last year after about 3 years it was a very lonely marriage. I cry nearly every day. I'm dating a good guy that has a daughter. It's been very hard. I no longer seem to understand "normal" human interaction. I've always been there for my mom since I was a kid, but she turned her back on me when I was going through one of the hardest times in my life. I'm very angry and hurt. I feel betrayed. She still has no idea that I feel this way.

I sometimes think that my mom should have just had friends and not a third child (me). My brothers are great, I'm a failure in every way. I'm now 34, and my mom is still with my step dad who ever since I can remember has made my mom cry. I've worried about my mom dying or being sad all of my life. I'm uptight, worried and very alone in the world. I don't know how to emotionally connect with anyone. My husband and I divorced last year after about 3 years it was a very lonely marriage. I cry nearly every day. I'm dating a good guy that has a daughter. It's been very hard. I no longer seem to understand "normal" human interaction. I've always been there for my mom since I was a kid, but she turned her back on me when I was going through one of the hardest times in my life. I'm very angry and hurt. I feel betrayed. She still has no idea that I feel this way.
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